Of all my Christmas morning memories, the strongest is one that repeated year after year when I was a child. In our house, the main presents waited until all the grown-ups were awake and showered and breakfasted…in other words, an intolerably long period of time. I could open my stocking, though, as soon as I woke up–and it would be hung or laid right outside my bedroom door. So, here’s the memory: lying in bed, having dream after dream of getting up and getting my stocking. Literally, I would have a mini-dream that I had gotten up, then I’d wake up, realize it was still dark, go back to sleep, and have the same dream, on repeat, until it was finally
I haven’t gotten much better at waiting–and sometimes I still have
Waiting, whether it’s for bad news or good news or simply news, calls on our core emotional and spiritual skills. It asks us to be okay with uncertainty–and let’s be real, who likes uncertainty?! Sometimes we don’t even know what we’re waiting for, we just know that wherever we are isn’t the place we expect to end up. Experiencing that uncertainty, that liminal space, can be hard.
This month’s theme of Mystery has focused on the awe and
May we find the courage and the strength to sit in Mystery, to make it through uncertainty and unknowing. May we try not to rehearse–over and over again as in a dream–what might happen next, but rather breathe deeply and notice what is, now, in the midst of our waiting.